Sunday, December 02, 2007
seriously i am very disappointed with my aunt. really very disappointed. even though we arent very close or anything liddat. i am still very disappointed in her. met my guardian and friends today. my guardian told me my aunt called her. she told my guardian that "i think Angie should be able to make it through poly but i dont think she can work as a nurse in future." i was like WTF! why do you have to look down on me and my capabilties? i know my studies is not very good, i cant score a GPA 3 and above. i know i am not as good as those outstanding nursing students in school. it doesnt mean i cant take hardship and cannot adapt to nursing life in future. i felt really hurt cause my aunt doesnt even know me well and how can she judge me just because of my family background. i have proven her wrong all these years. doing well in school, manage to pass my olevels and get a course in poly and i am working hard now for myself and my future. she still constantly look down on me. i felt very disappointed, i have work so hard for so many years and not a single shit saw my effort. how would you feel if someone stab you behind your back saying you will be like your mum, ending up in prison etc. wont you feel like giving the person a slap? and for goodness sake, she only gave me $150 a month okay? and nothing else and she can badmouth me. for the past few years, they (my aunt, ah ma and uncles) thought that i will turned out to be ah lian, hanging out with different man, have sex, eat drugs, dropped out from school and go to jail just like my mum but i proved them wrong. i worked so hard to "wash" off this thinking from them and it happen all again. i am just a growing adult. no one really taught me values and etc except from the children's home but i am doing well now. at least i am not doing what they thought i would do. if you asked them my birthday, i doubt they know. how sad izzit. they dont know me and judge me. i feel soooooooooooooooooooo ANGRYYYYY seriouslyyyy. and i am writing in here cause i am reallyyyyy very FED UP!!! why must life be a misery? can someone brighten me up??
Y12/02/2007 04:24:00 PM
